Who knows really…
Well, by now we thought we would be eating breakfast at the Loveless Café, square-dancing at The Wildhorse and getting our groceries at the Nashville Farm Market. Instead we are eating breakfast in our kitchen, occasionally dancing in our living room, and getting our food from Meijer. This has been quite an ongoing process. The hardest part for me is answering everyone’s questions because we don’t have any answer to give them really. It sort of feels like we are failing. Like we talked this big game of making our dreams come true and moving to our favorite city in the world and here we stand.
Andrew and I went with a small group from our church to help with the tornado relief efforts in Joplin, MO. On the way down, I found out that some things had fallen through. I think God gave me that answer at the perfect time. He knew I wouldn’t have time to dwell on my own problems. I literally didn’t even care once we got to Joplin. How could I even worry about that when I was seeing people who lost their homes, jobs and loved ones. That experience certainly changed my life and brought me closer to God at a time that may have taken me farther away from Him.
We are in the stage now that we need to prepare to stay as well as prepare to go. It is quite a strange feeling not knowing what you will be doing in a month, let alone a week. If anything this experience has made Andrew and I live each day separately and cherish the times we are having with family and friends. If we stay we will get to be with the people we love more than anything and that is a comforting thought. We are just ready for anything right now. The waiting is killer, but we know we don’t have a choice. I’m a planner and not being able to plan is torture, but I know God is teaching me lessons every moment about patience and trust. Who knows if we make it to Nashville this year. It is a dream we will continue to strive for. We believe that we will be there eventually, whether in the near future or not. We are just going to keep truckin’ along and see what happens.